To wait, or to anticipate?

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Since my last post, “The answer might be to wait,” I have been doing just that: waiting. But not sitting idly as the world passes me by. I continue to keep my mind and body active and to carve out time to do what makes me happy. And I’ve learned a few things about myself in the process: 1) I am able to find an extra nine hours in a week if I really want to, because it’s a matter of ‘making’ the time. 2) I might be fickle in a few areas of my life, but I know what I want and where I want to go. Now I need to discover the right path to get there. However, maybe it’s those unexpected twists and turns that create the journey that is mine alone. And 3) I am stronger than I thought I was [read: conquered my first five-minute plank]. Perhaps it’s not waiting, after all, but anticipating better things to come.

Are you waiting, or anticipating?

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The answer might be to wait

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Since writing my post, “It’s just the beginning,” I’ve taken my life into my own hands, made my own decisions and started living the life I want now. Seriously? Okay, to the casual observer, and even those who know me quite well, it might appear as if nothing has changed. That I’m still stuck in a rut and making no progress toward achieving my goals. But, to anyone who can see my heart or read my mind, the landscape is shifting. Where once occupied by shadows, light and pops of color paint the canvas—meaning and purpose within reach, a lack of complacency replaced by hope. And I’m learning that living Today might require me to wait. That every now and then it may be in my best interest to allow time to heal. To teach. To better prepare me. I was afraid it could be too late, that time was running out. But it turns out that I’m write on time.

How do you handle the wait?

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An amazing life

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I spent the past 31 days reciting a positive affirmation each morning. I practice Bikram yoga, attend church, volunteer my time, share laughter with friends and family, work in a field I’m passionate about and engage in fulfilling hobbies. I wake up every day and choose happiness, yet I seem to be missing something. Through Family Share and its 15 steps to ensure an amazing life, however, I discovered a few missing links.

  1. Connect with yourself and others
  2. Live in the present
  3. Always create
  4. Cultivate an “attitude of gratitude”
  5. Choose a mentor wisely
  6. Give your body the gift of rest and relaxation
  7. Eat for happiness (skip processed foods, enjoy healthy fats)
  8. Cleanse your body
  9. Cleanse your mind
  10. Cleanse your spirit
  11. Establish healthy boundaries
  12. Let go of anything that doesn’t serve you
  13. Set SMART goals (specific, measurable, attainable, relevant, timely)
  14. It’s a practice, not a perfect
  15. Help others

Where do you miss the mark?

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Rediscovering our personal truths

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This week while I wrapped up a work project, I rediscovered six personal truths that make me tick: 1) I do what I love. If I ever again must be reminded of the answer to the question, ‘Am I in the right field, career-wise?’ I need only recall the Adrenalin rush I experience each time I write. Now I want more. 2) I practice self-love. Self-love and cutting ourselves slack don’t necessarily mean the same thing. A glass of wine to relax, yes; chased by frosted Saltine crackers to de-stress, no. 3) The perfect time to start something never arrives. I am ready to take the next step toward living Today. 4) No (wo)man is an island. I desire to fellowship with others, to encourage and share accountability. And my editor usually knows best. 5) Better late than never. All good things take time. But deadlines are still important. 6) I am good enough. Yet there will always be room for improvement.

What personal truths have you rediscovered?

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Stretching, bending our muscle memory

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Part of living my life ‘Today’ includes doing things that displace me from my comfort zone. For example, on a recent routine pizza/movie night, I opted, instead, for dinner at a new venue, followed by musical entertainment—which resulted in unexpected, albeit pleasant surprises. One morning I attended a ‘silent’ yoga class, allowing me to focus on my breath and my thoughts without distraction; another day I practiced in the second row where my image is blurrier and it’s harder to pinpoint those areas I might otherwise judge or become preoccupied with. Rather, I concentrated on the big picture—how my body felt and how that translated to my reflection in the mirror. And by saying ‘yes’ to a friend’s spontaneous invitation to the movies, I met five new incredible ladies. When we try fresh things that challenge our norm, we stretch and bend our muscle memory and develop into more flexible individuals, whether inside or outside of the hot room.

What new thing recently challenged your norm?

 

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Easier said than done

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That old saying in the title rings spot-on for me now more than ever since I committed to living my life Today (see “It’s just the beginning”). I’ve begun the process by initiating dialog, albeit painful, forcing me to examine my heart and my motives and to cull the truths from the lies about who I am and what I believe about myself. It feels like I’ve been squeezed through an emotional wringer over the past few days as I shine a light on the darkness and examine my character. I hope it hasn’t always been about my desires, my needs—but rather a wanderlust not to travel so much as to explore and learn, to grow into the most authentic version of the reflection I see in the mirror each day. Ultimately, I know what I must do. Yet that’s when it’s easier said than done. It’s scary… exhilarating. And I feel like I’m running out of time.

When is it easier said than done for you?

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It’s just the beginning

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At some point you need to take your life into your own hands. And make your own decisions. Start living the life you want now. Texted to me from a friend after listening to the broken record of my life again, I read these words nestled between a bit of well-deserved derision, and then returned to my safety net (see “Habits are choices…”). As expected, I woke up puffy and sad, no closer to any resolution. Except at some point I need to take my life into my own hands. And make my own decisions. And start living the life I want now. Not tomorrow. Not Someday. Today. This means committing to a few tough choices, making mistakes, disappointing people, feeling discomfort instead of stuffing it. And forgiving myself for waiting so long. Because my heart is heavy, burdened, by conforming to a life that no longer fits—the caterpillar who believes her world is over. Yet it’s only beginning.

Is this the life you want to live?

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