Wasn’t it just yesterday I blogged about my birthday—living with intention, dreaming new dreams, stepping outside of my comfort zone? Life looks vastly different today than it did last year…[read more]
As the year draws to a close, and as I grasp tightly (kicking and screaming) the vestiges of my forties for a few days longer, I reflect on that for which I’m grateful: Those friends who have come and gone from my life—the ones who bless me daily, and those who served the sole purpose of teaching me (sometimes painful) lessons; the second chances I’ve been gifted, a new path to traverse—a clean slate, if you will. I’m energized by the possibilities, my heart lighter than ever. And as I step into this new season, I can honestly say I’ve discovered what I’ve been searching for all this time. The funny thing is it’s been right under my nose all along. Because when I finally stopped focusing on me—my needs, my expectations, my self—I understood for the first time what it means to be happy. So happy rebirthday to me… a fresh beginning to sparkle where I’m planted.
Where could you use a rebirth?
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One day you will wake up and realize that life has passed you by, that your dreams of today are gone, that the things you wanted are no longer there. Not today. Not now. Not your life. This is the day where you take control and create your future. Life isn’t about waiting, hoping or wishing. It is about creating, doing and truly living. Today is that day. ~ Brad Gast
If you could do anything, what would you choose? Have you already arrived? Or is there more? I’m always hoping my dreams come true, waiting for “Someday,” wishing wishing wishing when I blow out my birthday candles each December. I’m always trying to decipher the true meaning of happiness, to be content today so I don’t miss out on a single moment. No regrets. But mostly I’m taking control and creating a niche for myself, doing doing doing so that one day, I will have truly lived.
Last December I celebrated my birthday over the course of 12 days (the 12 days of Chrissy). Each day I did one thing to honor the day of my birth. For example, one evening I soaked in a bubble bath while reading and sipping on a glass of Choco Noir. Dinner and live music one night and a lunch date with my co-workers also contributed to the fun. I thought of doing it again this year, but I’m considering trying something different. Like volunteering my time. And instead of spending a lot of money on Christmas gifts that we either end up returning or don’t really need to begin with, I think it would be rewarding to adopt a family who requires assistance. Usually I enter this time of year — birthday and Christmas — with mixed feelings (the commercialism doesn’t help). But this year I’m actually looking forward to the holidays. Maybe it has to do with taking the focus off me.
Today my “little” girl turned 20. No longer a teenager and not yet an “official” adult, she’s that “in-between” age for the next year. It’s as if she’s living in her own personal limbo as she plans for her grown-up future. Such an exciting and scary time all rolled into one. I envy her a bit. Not that I’d want to return to 20 when I thought I knew everything but really knew very little and was afraid of my own shadow. But I’d like an extra two dozen years for trial and error, to take chances and step out of my comfort zone — knowing I had plenty of room to right my wrongs and start all over if necessary. Although I’m not ready to crawl under a rock any time soon, to throw caution to the wind at my age holds less appeal. However, I wouldn’t mind knowing what I know now without aging for another 20 years.
Happy Birthday, Baby.
If you could be one age indefinitely, what would that be?